Bad teacher

Whew so I totally blew my second class of the semester on Friday. Seriously. I sucked as a teacher. I was teaching on friendship and so I was bringing in Aristotle's three types of friendships and the virtues. But I could not talk well to save my life. My brain was simply fried. It was awful. Then to see students zoning out or falling asleep-- that threw me even more.

Uncool.

Then of course all of my insecurity kicked in and I felt like hiding from the world and giving up on my dream to teach. *Sigh*. I'm noticing a pattern: when I go in with all of these expectations and performance oriented goals, I end up completely sucking and being boring. When I go in with a focused desire on being a source of encouragement, I do better.

So I think I might need to send my class an email of apology or something because I was pretty lame and pretty irritated at their lack of response by the end. Ugh. Here's hoping next week will be better.